avaneesh912 wrote: ↑Wed Mar 15, 2023 5:43 am
Spiritual malady creeps in once in a while. But the good part is I am aware of it.
I just read here, on another sub-forum, that my fear lives where my God is not. That hit me. I have been fearful lately, about my alcoholic children and how they are faring... I KNOW that this is not my circus, but those are my monkeys, LOL. Laughing but serious. I think I have such a deep investment in my adult children that I should be allowed some control and it is SOOO hard to let go. BUT! When I place god there with them, working in their lives... I see that all will be well, no matter how I feel about the way things appear. HP IS WORKING, I just don't see it the way I think I should see it! So I yell and stomp my feet and ask my old Santa Claus god for all the things I think will make things "better".
But as avaneesh said, "I am aware" (post 5th Step) of my faults and my poor actions. Sooner or later I become aware of how it works in my life today. I am then aware of the solution laid out in the Steps and I can,
in deed,
act in accordance with my morals and values rather than rashly in my little feelies. I also have the right to be wrong and I have the right to fail, or what I think is failing.
I like to think, "Nothing is wasted in God's economy" and I carry on... trudging the Road of Happy Destiny.
Cling to the thought that, in God's hands, the dark past is the greatest possession you have - the key to life and happiness for others. With it you can avert death and misery for them. page 124 BB