Postby desypete » Thu Nov 09, 2017 8:27 pm
i think the problem is with your obsession about the mental twist stage
Didnt you relapse after few years in fellowship? What happened to the "if you dont drink the first one you wont get drink".
I didnt you follow what you say here?
i managed to go 15 years without picking up that first drink
in those 15 years my focus was on making money and providing for my family etc
so my obsession had a focus and yes there were times i was fed up that i couldn't drink more so at xmas times as i really hated new years eve as everyone it seemed to me would be out there having a great time but not me lol
but the point here is i was not a full blown 24 7 drunk then i was merely an obsession type of alcoholic if you want to call it that
but this time around the difference is i know where i went wrong
i left aa i thought i didnt need it anymore in my life that i was recovered
well i wasnt was i as 15 years later i picked up that first drink
but 15 years is a long time without anything aa related or being around any others from fellowship so i really had no chance of not picking up
like i have said when i came back i was a full blown drunken bum
i had to learn how to get through a day without a drink
how would you get me through my first day without me picking up a drink ? shove a book in my face or quote from a book or tell me to watch chris r videos ?
it really doesnt work not with new comers who have ended up with nothing left
if you want to read something read the chapter on working the 12th step its so important in the book that it has a chapter all of its own
read what they did the lengths they went to and the conditions of the people they were trying to help
can you imagine picking up a tramp off the street and trying to get them sober ? taking them into your own home as you know in your heart you had all the answers that would help that person get sober and stay sober
yet no matter what they did they had to face it they couldn't get anyone sober but what it did show was that it kept them sober by doing the work
just how would you go about even trying to get a washed up drunk sober ?
i would put it you that we need to learn how to not pick up that first drink