by Brock » Mon Aug 29, 2016 3:58 am
Welcome here Adam. Your story is something I can relate to, and I expect the people you meet in the meeting later will give similar stories, some perhaps loosing even more than yourself, some less.
Families have been lost on rare occasion never to return, but in cases like yours I have experienced things being mended, but it takes a little time for the trust to return.
Just a couple of things to add to the fine advise given by others, meetings vary both in type, and attendance, it is useful to go to a few different ones to find what you like best. The first few days are certainly the hardest, when your body is detoxing from the alcohol, lack of sleep and general anxiety or 'shakes' make this hard to bear and potentially dangerous. If you can afford it or it is available at no cost, a doctor visit may be a good idea, you may get a mild sedative to assist you over this period, just be really honest with the doctor about the amount you drink. Lastly, please believe that once you do the simple steps of the AA program, the release from that gnawing feeling to drink disappears entirely, it really is quite marvelous.
"Good morning, this is your Higher Power speaking. I will not be needing your help today."