What Tangled Webs We Weave

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johnd
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What Tangled Webs We Weave

Post by johnd » Sat Jul 18, 2015 8:17 pm

Just reviewing things as of late. Here it is a Saturday night and I am Sober ... What am I doing... I am trying to share a message online.... Just some thoughts about how lucky I am or should I say How blessed that I am. Either way is ok however one wants to understand it..... You see before I became sober many Saturday nights consisted of either getting together at a friend's house or going to the bar to catch up with everyone.... Sometimes I might start out with the intent of staying in and just having a couple of beers and chilling out. Usually when I would do that I would get better ideas about how to make my Saturday night more festive, Call up friends or better yet drop in unannounced.... Bring whatever I still had with me and hope they would have more available to share. When that ran out I could always drive down to the Pub and make last call.... the fun thing about being a regular at that pub was I can stay much later than closing and go out to the bartender's or better yet the owner's house and still continue on.. Sunday morning crawl in if I do make it in alright. I can take a quick nap and meet my obligations with the family that afternoon.... Sunday afternoon.... Too tired and my head is pounding I must of ran to the bathroom a few times I'm sure... You get the picture... That was called having a good time... Not all Saturdays and Sundays were quite as mild as that .. Sometimes I couldn't make it home.. Sometimes I had a police escort inviting me to a particular jail for the weekend....
Whew!! that was a lot of work and a lot of inconviences for a lot of folks...... Funny I don't miss those festive Saturday nights anymore.. I like a quiet evening at home or get together with family or friends and remember everything about the time spent... Nice being sober these days.. Sometimes When I reflect on that other life I am amazed I survived it. The Grace of God for sure... Thank you AA and everything you offer.... Just felt like sharing in case someone needs to identify or need a message and to say Yes I am an alcoholic and my name is John...... John D.
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Re: What Tangled Webs We Weave

Post by Tosh » Sun Jul 19, 2015 12:19 am

It's funny how things change, John. I spent the whole of yesterday in the sunshine at a music and dance festival with my family; there was a lot of folk drinking there and for some that seemed to be the main focus of the day.

It was lovely to have a nice day out, with Mrs Tosh, my step daughter, and my lovely dog and not be bothered by booze; either drinking it or thinking about it.

And Sunday mornings (it's 8.20 am in the UK) with a cup of coffee is another gift; I still don't take dry beds and the lack of hangovers for granted either. I've got a dog to walk, feed, and then I'm going for a run. Everything feels perfect.
Come, come, whoever you are. Wanderer, worshiper, lover of leaving. It doesn't matter. Ours is not a caravan of despair. Come, even if you have broken your vows a thousand times. Come, yet again, come, come.” Rumi (No sniggering from the sex addicts)

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Post by ann2 » Sun Jul 19, 2015 1:02 am

Thanks for the great shares. I remember mostly trying to find two things with alcohol: answers to the problems I had, and of course escape from those problems. It's amazing that I find answers today through applying the solution to my drinking problem. On top of that, drinking to find answers to problems usually created more problems that I needed answers too :shock:

Last night I did some work because the office was intruding on my vacation time and I decided to deal with the tasks while in front of the TV, hubby dozing in the other couch. Then the 9 year old called from her sleepover next door teary and I said I would come get her in 5 minutes. And I did. And I didn't mind at all that hubby continued to doze. Wow. What a program.

Drunk, I would never have this family at all, or this job. If I picked up, which I could have done except for the help I got from e-AA, I can't imagine what that scene would have been like last night. Just anger fueled by alcohol, at the job and my husband. Something so simple turned incredibly sad, and more problems created rather than solved.

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Re: What Tangled Webs We Weave

Post by Tom S » Sun Jul 19, 2015 6:40 am

What a great share.
A miracle.
It works like that for me too.
People actually find it safe to ask me to do something.
Who'd ever have thought that.
Blessings

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Re: What Tangled Webs We Weave

Post by Duke » Sun Jul 19, 2015 7:26 am

Thanks John.

Stark-raving fear versus peace of mind. I'll take the latter.

I remember many a Sunday, searching for a place to buy a few pints, cursing my stupidity for running out on a Sunday. (We used to have laws against alcohol sales on Sunday). And, somehow, I would have found a way to blame my wife as well and criticize her a bit.

What a life. So glad I found another way. Thanks.
"If you are humble nothing will touch you, neither praise nor disgrace, because you know what you are.", Mother Teresa

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