I was grateful to learn that Alcoholism was an Illness... Not a Moral Failing, Lack of Will Power, or any of the stigmas I was used to...But an accepted and definable Illness.Alcoholism -- an illness
Today we are willing to accept the idea that, as far as we are concerned, alcoholism is an illness, a progressive illness which can never be “cured,” but which, like some other illnesses, can be arrested. We agree that there is nothing shameful about having an illness, provided we face the problem honestly and try to do something about it. We are perfectly willing to admit that we are allergic to alcohol and that it is simply common sense to stay away from the source of our allergy.
We understand now that once a person has crossed the invisible borderline from heavy drinking to compulsive alcoholic drinking, that person will always remain an alcoholic. So far was we know, there can never be any turning back to “normal’ social drinking. “Once and alcoholic, always an alcoholic” is a simple fact we have to live with.
We have also learned that there are few alternatives for alcoholics. If they continue to drink, their problem will become progressively worse; they seem assuredly on the path to skid row, to jails or other institutions, or to early graves. The only alternative is to stop drinking completely, to abstain from even the smallest quantity of alcohol in any form. If they are willing to follow this course, and to take advantage of the help available to them, a whole new life can open up for alcoholics. (Pamphlet, "This is AA" )http://www.aa.org/pdf/products/p-1_thisisaa1.pdf
Like a cucumber soaked too long in brine becomes a pickle, and can never be a cucumber again, I had crossed that invisible line from hard drinker to compulsive alcoholic drinking.
Once there, I was plague by the illusion that some how, some way, I would control and enjoy my drinking... the Great Obsession of every Abnormal drinker. It was the insanity of doing the same thing over and over and expecting it to turn out differently.
Had it Not been for the 'disease' concept of Alcoholism, I surely would have ended up pursuing it into the Gates of Insanity or Death...instead, thanks to AA, I have gotten a second chance at Life, and it's a good life. Thanks