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Happiness Overrated?

Post by veralex » Mon Jul 31, 2006 10:29 am

An alcoholic takes stock.

I sometimes find myself irritable, restless, discontented, or depressed for no apparent reason at all. Today, in my recovery, it usually doesn't take long before I suffer from ill attitudes or behaviors direclty linked to what I describe as being disconnected, or in a stagnant spiritual pool.
At this point, I usually launch a personal inventory and thorough spiritual investigation. I have a list of questions that I ask myself.
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  • <font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Am I praying and meditation - keeping in contact with my Higher Power?</font></li>
  • <font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Am I attending meetings on a routine basis? (For me, this means at least five times a week.)</font></li>
  • <font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Am I talking to my sponsor regularly and letting him know what's going on?</font></li>
  • <font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">When there were opportunities, have I worked with another alcoholic?</font></li>
  • <font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Am I needlessly reliving the past or projecting the future?</font></li>
  • <font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Is there some defect or shortcoming that I refuse to surrender, for fear of still less control?</font></li>
<font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> It's been my experience, in my short period of sobriety, that happiness may be a little overrated. A constant search for it may be a waste of time. I have learned that I must do the next right thing, regardless of how bad or good I feel about it, or anything else, for that matter. To grasp both the bad and the good and then come out on the other side with neither regret nor arrogance is to truly live.
It also helps to remember the words of my crazy sponsor who instructed me with a version of Rule #62: Do not take my life or myself so damn seriously. It also helps to believe that with pain comes growth. You might just be on the verge of a beautiful new understanding.

Jim W, Florida

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