When you go, go with an open mind Madame. I had all of these pre-existing notions of what it would be like. It has been absolutely NOTHING like I expected. It's a good thing to do. When you go you probably won't get a sponsor right away, but there were "temporary" sponsors that all wrote their name and phone # on a card for me to call them if I needed someone to talk to while finding the right fit for a sponsor. I'm on day 3 with my third meeting tonight. I'll keep posting on here as often as I can. My biggest obstacle has been my inability to sleep normal hours. Thank God I took the week off to do this.MadameM wrote:Hi Joe, welcome.
I still haven't gone to a meeting. I've been sober a week. A whole week. Had some cravings tonight. Thank goddess for Halloween candy, lol.
I know its only a matter of time, I need to go to a meeting and find a sponsor.
I can't be a social recluse forever.
The other thing for me is the depression. Last night I ran and hid in my bathroom and sobbed for 5 minutes. I had no idea why I was crying. Shortly after I was done, I thought of the silliness of it all and had a good laugh (hope that doesn't make sound crazy but oh well). I think I've been self medicating with alcohol to "cure" my depression. My doc, whom I've been seeing since I was very young, thinks it's more anxiety than depression but I'm going to make a follow up appointment and seek professional counseling as well.
Thanks all for letting me vent.