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Scared

Postby Frustratedme » Tue Apr 12, 2016 2:21 am

I am brand-new to this site still learning and I need in ear to bend on, I was sober for eight months and two days not making any excuses my grandpa just died two days ago and I tried to take my frustrations out on cleaning the house I fell on a rod iron chair cried for two days and then picked up my bottle of vodka I'm so upset with myself now I have the shakes I'm scared to stop because my boyfriend said if he found out I drink again he would leave me but there's no way to stop without getting help I'm lonely sad confused frustrated I just don't know what to do and on top of that he collects alcohol so it's in my face 24 seven… I am in a pickle right now
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Re: Scared

Postby ann2 » Tue Apr 12, 2016 2:24 am

Hi Frustratedme,

I'm so sorry! Can you call? Alcoholics Anonymous is listed in your telephone directory. If you need help finding the number just let me know your area code!

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Re: Scared

Postby Frustratedme » Tue Apr 12, 2016 2:31 am

18424 I have never been to an AA meeting I was drinking a liter of vodka a day for about 12 years then I got cirrhosis of my liver and they hospitalized me and it was a wake up call set if I took a drink again I would die And here I am scared confused...I quit cold turkey never went to any meetings this is probably going to be harder than I thought
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Re: Scared

Postby Frustratedme » Tue Apr 12, 2016 2:41 am

How did I let myself come to this how did I do this why am I so weak why couldn't I be a better why can I be stronger I don't know…
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Re: Scared

Postby ann2 » Tue Apr 12, 2016 2:54 am

Hi! It looks like you're in Northeast Pennsylvania. The local number is

570-654-0488

Call right away and ask for help, you are not alone!
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Re: Scared

Postby ann2 » Tue Apr 12, 2016 2:56 am

You are not weak, you are probably very very strong, finding our site and asking for help!

What I had to find out was that I had a disease. Alcoholism made me drink when I didn't want to, and it was stronger than me, despite all my self-will.

Luckily Alcoholics Anonymous understands the problem and has a solution that worked for me and millions like me!

Please call and join us in the solution that saved my life!

Big hugs,

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Re: Scared

Postby Frustratedme » Tue Apr 12, 2016 3:07 am

I will call now… Thank you
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Re: Scared

Postby positrac » Tue Apr 12, 2016 3:43 am

You've got to make the decision on what you want and now it is most difficult to accept the loss of your grandfather and picking up. So I suggest if you liked what you saw and want what we have (sobriety) then get your tail to a meeting and admit failure and ask for help and we'll love you until you can love yourself. Time heals and this is a time project to get sober and our mind better to accept we have a drinking, thinking and acting problem.

One day at a time is all you are expected to accomplish.

be well and chin up.
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Re: Scared

Postby PaigeB » Tue Apr 12, 2016 1:27 pm

I quit cold turkey never went to any meetings this is probably going to be harder than I thought

Don't let your head get in the way of your feet. Going to a meeting is as simple as walking. Grab door handle and pull. Walk. Sit. Simple AND easy. The hard part is in our mind. Truly - my brain was making it very hard. It is not as hard as you think it is... it was hard for me, only as I thought of it.

Just walk in.

NOTE: Please. Do be careful about self detoxing. You may need a doctor's care for that - that is up to you, your family and your doctor.

Be at peace. We will be there with you in spirit.
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