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by maurits
Sun Feb 16, 2014 10:38 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Self hatred and fear of people
Replies: 36
Views: 25399

Re: Self hatred and fear of people

Why do you hate yourself? I don't know why. It started in childhood with an abusive father. dear fellows, indeed, i can relate, all early experiences from my childhood were somehow stored in my body, those memories were already imprinted within me long before i was even able to speak, i have learne...
by maurits
Sun Feb 16, 2014 8:09 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: I'm new/Hello
Replies: 15
Views: 3606

Re: I'm new/Hello

feeling so out of place is common and that it isn't just me doing it "wrong"! the most comfortable way to get to know people. dear fellows, indeed, feeling so out of place and also feeling guilty most of the time , is common, both are two of the many symptoms of alcoholism, in my own experience of ...
by maurits
Sun Feb 16, 2014 5:47 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: What I've Finally Realized
Replies: 17
Views: 3936

Re: What I've Finally Realized

I've come to realize the fact that I'm an alcoholic. what I can expect once I open up to family and friends dear fellows, i started to realize , that i am an alcoholic, by recognizing most of the symptoms of an alcoholic, my initial associations however, with the actual word or label "alcoholic", d...
by maurits
Fri Feb 14, 2014 8:09 pm
Forum: If It Doesn't Fit Anywhere Else
Topic: Today I'm grateful for...
Replies: 166
Views: 68823

Re: Today I'm grateful for...

dear fellows, today i'm grateful for the calmness my HP granted me, today i'm grateful for really experiencing the giving and receiving of love and care, today i'm grateful for having been (undeserved) forgiven for my past, fortunately, my higher power still guides me, step by step, one day at a tim...
by maurits
Tue Feb 04, 2014 5:57 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Attendance Records
Replies: 15
Views: 6944

Re: Attendance Records

they also pass around a small pocket size spiral notebook in which everyone writes down their name and phone number under the date for that meeting. dear fellows, i haven't noticed whether this practice also happens in the meetings i attend, since i do not write down my name and phone number on any...
by maurits
Sun Oct 20, 2013 11:48 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: feel so alone at meetings
Replies: 14
Views: 3283

Re: feel so alone at meetings

the day will come when you will see another newcomer standing alone, and will go over to keep him company. dear fellows, indeed, when i came to AA, i could relate more to those recovering alcoholics who were 30 days sober than to those with 30 years of sobriety, with regards to this subject, the Re...
by maurits
Sun Oct 20, 2013 8:34 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Desperate really need some advice
Replies: 18
Views: 3675

Re: Desperate really need some advice

what I'm seeking to know is in the moment you want to drink, what do you do to stop yourself. dear fellows, indeed, this was one of the first questions i asked my sponsor, what do i do in the moment i want to drink? he replied: pick up the phone and call me, which i did, many many times, and since ...
by maurits
Sat Oct 19, 2013 11:50 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: don't know how to do this
Replies: 19
Views: 3158

Re: don't know how to do this

somehow I've convinced myself that I'm a functioning alcoholic dear fellows, indeed, i can relate, especially chapter 3 more about alcoholism from the (big) book alcoholics anonymous , made an impression on me, The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obses...
by maurits
Sat Oct 19, 2013 10:54 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Desperate really need some advice
Replies: 18
Views: 3675

Re: Desperate really need some advice

feel like I'm never going to be able to stop drinking. dear fellows, indeed, i can relate, especially the word never makes the feeling overwhelming, in my experience the words just for today makes the feeling less intense, still it's hard, i know, but it can be done, just for today i don't drink al...
by maurits
Fri Oct 18, 2013 8:33 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: The Steps as the Programme.
Replies: 17
Views: 4100

Re: The Steps as the Programme.

dear fellows, many of our predecessors have stated that a spiritual awakening is achieved by taking the 12 Steps, and sobriety is strengthened by volunteering for service, regular AA meeting attendance and contact with other recovering alcoholics, and yes, members are encouraged to find an experienc...
by maurits
Thu Oct 17, 2013 4:58 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: 30 Days
Replies: 9
Views: 1710

Re: 30 Days

shaunagus wrote: I've made it to 30 days :-) And it's been miraculously manageable.
shaun, congratulations!

enjoy your day,

hug, maurits
by maurits
Wed Oct 16, 2013 10:30 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: a desire... but no will...
Replies: 10
Views: 2632

Re: a desire... but no will...

I don't interact dear fellows, indeed, there are moments in meetings when i'm not so open to interact with others, yet i am still interested in the shares of other recovering alcoholics, therefore i aim to listen on a more intuitive and emotional level, usually with my eyes closed, then i am especi...
by maurits
Wed Oct 16, 2013 3:53 pm
Forum: Sponsorship
Topic: stalled sponsee
Replies: 18
Views: 9512

Re: stalled sponsee

sponsorship is like that... I have learned so much from mine! dear fellows, indeed, to carry the message and not the alcoholic, is of course, certainly also in my experience, easier said than done, gradually i seem to appreciate the value of this learning process with its sometimes very challenging...
by maurits
Tue Oct 15, 2013 2:43 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: 1st meeting since relapse today
Replies: 8
Views: 1576

Re: 1st meeting since relapse today

I knew I was medicating my problems dear fellows, several times was i brought to an emergency room due to sleep deprivation, alcohol and substance abuse, the first time that happened was on thursday december 28 2000, of course, this experience had a deep lasting impact on me, it was terrible, while...
by maurits
Tue Oct 15, 2013 1:52 am
Forum: Young People in AA (YPAA)
Topic: Is it really worth it........
Replies: 10
Views: 10530

Re: Is it really worth it........

dear fellows, if i could travel back in time, the first words i would say to my younger self are, yes, it's really worth it, fortunately, my higher power still guides me, step by step, one day at a time, thank you all for sharing experience, strength and hope, stay safe and connected, kind regards, ...