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by MadameM
Fri Dec 02, 2011 9:14 am
Forum: Sponsorship
Topic: How do I find a sponsor?
Replies: 4
Views: 2751

How do I find a sponsor?

The meetings I have been able to attend so far have all been filled with men. The women who do attend are newcomers or DUI offenders attending just to get their papers signed. The one woman I did meet who I connected with was just a visitor passing through on her way to FL. Is there a way to find a ...
by MadameM
Wed Nov 30, 2011 9:19 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: 3 weeks today!
Replies: 20
Views: 6795

Re: 3 weeks today!

Don't I have to be invited to a closed meeting? Can I just show up? How does that work? Yes, I have completed step one. It's definitely the hardest step of all. I am powerless over alcohol, and my life has become unmanageable as a result of this powerlessness. I thought I was losing my mind these pa...
by MadameM
Tue Nov 29, 2011 10:13 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: 3 weeks today!
Replies: 20
Views: 6795

Re: 3 weeks today! update!

Been to two meetings! Gonna keep going. I may not relate to everyone there, a lot of peeps there just to get their DUI papers signed. But thats ok. I got my Big Book in the mail today, too. One day at a time. I am stuck on Step 4/5. Step 4 I'm stuck cuz I just dont' want to deal with the anxiety of ...
by MadameM
Fri Nov 25, 2011 11:15 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: 3 weeks today!
Replies: 20
Views: 6795

Re: 3 weeks today!

I slept horribly all night. And it wasn't because I ate too much. It may sounds weird but after not having any alcohol in my system for 3 weeks it did not sit well in my tummy at all. I had horrible acid reflux all night. I never have this problem before unless if I was pregnant. UGH. Ok, I'm lookin...
by MadameM
Thu Nov 24, 2011 7:17 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: 3 weeks today!
Replies: 20
Views: 6795

Re: 3 weeks today!

yeah, well, I figured it was a matter of time until I partook (is that even a word?). I NEED TO GET TO A MEETING and find a home group and a sponsor. The mind F*** is intense. I had two glasses of wine after obsessing about it all freaking day today. I cooked, cleaned, and entertained an entire hous...
by MadameM
Wed Nov 23, 2011 12:50 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: 3 weeks today!
Replies: 20
Views: 6795

3 weeks today!

I really need to get a BB and 12/12. Anyone know where I can get some for cheap? I'm feeling pretty good. The cravings really do go away after awhile. I still have triggers, but just the thought of what may happen if I even jsut have one drink makes me sick to my stomach. the obsession about it is t...
by MadameM
Sun Nov 13, 2011 8:23 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Made it another 24 hours
Replies: 8
Views: 3469

Made it another 24 hours

I keep telling myself that I can drink tomorrow if I want to. So this whole sobriety thing doesn't seem so overwhelming. I'll deal with tomorrow when it comes. But for today I made it. I still obsessed about drinking. Sunday is a big drinking day over here. Thank god its just me and the bf at home f...
by MadameM
Sun Nov 13, 2011 8:17 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Stress.. Anger..how to deal with it??
Replies: 19
Views: 3843

Re: Stress.. Anger..how to deal with it??

Its ok to be angry. Feel it, acknowledge it, and breath thru it. If you fight it it will persist.

You can do this.
by MadameM
Fri Nov 11, 2011 12:00 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: The fog lifts
Replies: 6
Views: 1737

The fog lifts

I can see a definitive line in my mind of before and after. This time is different. I can't say I won't falter, all I know is that I don't want to lose the clarity I have in this moment. Facts are facts, and the fact is that I am an alcoholic. I hate that fact, but I must learn to accept it and take...
by MadameM
Wed Nov 09, 2011 11:03 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Day 3...and struggling (updated...day 14!)
Replies: 36
Views: 6237

Re: Day 3...and struggling

How you doing Jackie?

I, too, have struggled at meetings. I just made it a week and know I need to find a meeting, get a Big Book, and find a sponsor.

Keep up the good work!
by MadameM
Wed Nov 09, 2011 10:47 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: New. Glad I found you all.
Replies: 17
Views: 3359

Re: New. Glad I found you all.

Hi Joe, welcome.

I still haven't gone to a meeting. I've been sober a week. A whole week. Had some cravings tonight. Thank goddess for Halloween candy, lol.

I know its only a matter of time, I need to go to a meeting and find a sponsor.

I can't be a social recluse forever.
by MadameM
Mon Nov 07, 2011 12:03 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: Advice needed
Replies: 23
Views: 4326

Re: Advice needed

I have caught a glimpse. And I don't want to lose it. A glimpse of the life I am supposed to lead.

The longer I am sober, the more I realize just how sick I've been.

"Peeling the onion of denial".

Ain't that the truth.
by MadameM
Sun Nov 06, 2011 9:17 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: New. Glad I found you all.
Replies: 17
Views: 3359

Re: New. Glad I found you all.

Day 6.

Thank you for the Big Book link. Going to start reading tonight. I've read it before, but I stumbled years ago thinking I had this under control. Back to the basics.
by MadameM
Sun Nov 06, 2011 12:28 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: New. Glad I found you all.
Replies: 17
Views: 3359

New. Glad I found you all.

5 days sober, lifetime to go.

I hope I can find some support here, and offer some as well. I do not like going to meetings, I am somewhat of a social recluse. Atleast while sober, haha.

Thank you for having me!