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by jackie8226
Tue Nov 15, 2011 12:33 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Day 3...and struggling (updated...day 14!)
Replies: 36
Views: 6241

Re: Day 3...and struggling (updated...day 14!)

Thank you all so much for your comments! Well, I'm now 2 weeks sober :) It does feel good but the feeling things is...uncomfortable. I feel like I'm having just waves of emotions, good & bad and I'm not entirely certain how to handle them. I'm also becoming much more aware of the difficulty I'm havi...
by jackie8226
Fri Nov 11, 2011 8:59 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Day 3...and struggling (updated...day 14!)
Replies: 36
Views: 6241

Re: Day 3...and struggling

I'm Jackie, I'm an addict/alcoholic and I have been sober for 10 days. It seems to be getting easier right up to the point when it feels impossible. I wouldn't say I get cravings, but my thoughts get obsessed around "Should I just have 1 drink?" "Why can't I just have a drink?" and "Why am I even th...
by jackie8226
Wed Nov 09, 2011 1:26 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Day 3...and struggling (updated...day 14!)
Replies: 36
Views: 6241

Re: Day 3...and struggling

Thanks Rusty! Yea, I've tried AA several times in the past (never actually stopped drinking while going to meetings...turns out you should probably do both to be successful) and never got a sponsor but definitely saw how much better it went for people with one. I got really lucky that last week I co...
by jackie8226
Wed Nov 09, 2011 9:03 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Day 3...and struggling (updated...day 14!)
Replies: 36
Views: 6241

Re: Day 3...and struggling

It's been a week *pats self on back* and still going. Had a REALLY difficult last few days emotionally...its so different to actually FEEL emotions instead of being able to numb them out and ignore them. But, I got a sponsor :D and I did NOT drink and will not use today (or tomorrow but I'm trying t...
by jackie8226
Mon Nov 07, 2011 7:04 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Day 3...and struggling (updated...day 14!)
Replies: 36
Views: 6241

Re: Day 3...and struggling

Thank you all for your responses! I made it through the weekend and now on Day 6 :) I know my thinking is disordered about alcohol and drugs because of my disease and its really incredible how sneaky the disease is and how many times a day I think about having a drink. I went to 5 meetings over the ...
by jackie8226
Fri Nov 04, 2011 12:59 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Day 3...and struggling (updated...day 14!)
Replies: 36
Views: 6241

Re: Day 3...and struggling

Sharing does help...gets the thoughts out. And definitely the more I think about it, what would having the beer do? I would have the beer, have to cover the beer breath, lie to my family or admit that I couldn't even go 3 days and that wouldn't be ok. Its not worth it. I want to go to my meeting tom...
by jackie8226
Fri Nov 04, 2011 11:51 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Day 3...and struggling (updated...day 14!)
Replies: 36
Views: 6241

Day 3...and struggling (updated...day 14!)

I know I'm an alcoholic, I've known for years...I just didn't care. People told me to quit, to go to AA so I went to AA, but I didn't quit. I wasn't ready. Woke up Wednesday hungover after getting just trashed, feeling guilt, embarassment, shame and finally asked myself "Why do I do this to myself? ...