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by pete1061
Sat Jan 31, 2015 7:49 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: "NEWCOMERS"
Replies: 15
Views: 4488

Re: "NEWCOMERS"

I have 'relapsed' 17 F*** times in the past 27 years. I can take anything any "AA OLDTIMER" can dish out.... 27 years is 27 years.... try me Expletive. You f-ing oldtimers with your "pure" soberity.... you a-holes are not that f-ing hot!
by pete1061
Sat Jan 31, 2015 7:45 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: "NEWCOMERS"
Replies: 15
Views: 4488

"NEWCOMERS"

Ohhhhhhhh.. F***.... I am soo F*** pissed right now, I just wrote a whole post I f'd up and lost because of the nature of the f-ing internet..... you know... "pages lost!" oh well..... "arrrrrrghhhh!!!" f'k you AA!!!! ok, maybe that isn't exactly clear. after 27 f-ing yeras of this f-ing S***, I am ...
by pete1061
Wed Aug 27, 2014 10:23 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Doubting God
Replies: 32
Views: 10584

Re: Doubting God

I'm not even on very many phone lists at meetings, I don't want random people calling me and bothering me. May I ask, why then are you on any lists at all? So often, quite often , newcomers complain that they don't get any return phone calls when they really need to connect with someone. They want ...
by pete1061
Wed Aug 27, 2014 10:17 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Doubting God
Replies: 32
Views: 10584

Re: Doubting God

That's just what I was thinking!!! I just find the "they relapsed because they haven't really taken the first step" judgement to be an ignorant, uninformed opinion. You just sound like one of those dry, know it all, oldtimers. I guess we just view things differently and really have nothing to say t...
by pete1061
Wed Aug 27, 2014 4:43 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Doubting God
Replies: 32
Views: 10584

Re: Doubting God

harry71 wrote:Forget about the God thing. ,you have not taken step one. Sounds like you come to AA between drunks. If you are ok "showing improvement" then what 's the problem? It's like an 8 cylinder car running on 6 cylinders. It runs,just not very good.
bullsh*t.
by pete1061
Wed Aug 27, 2014 4:40 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Doubting God
Replies: 32
Views: 10584

Re: Doubting God

Can I ask if you sponsor, Pete? No, in all my in's and out's averaging in the neighborhood of 1 year or so, once in the early 90's I had 3 yrs 8 mos, I have never sponsored anyone. And right now I only have 13 days, so it's a little soon to be sponsoring. I'm not a very social person, the larger th...
by pete1061
Wed Aug 27, 2014 7:39 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Doubting God
Replies: 32
Views: 10584

Doubting God

I'm on day 13 back in from my 15th relapse. I've been "around" since 1988, sober 13 out of the past 26 years (just not consecutive). I average 6-18 months sober. When I'm in, I'm all in, 1-3 meetings a day, sponsor, working steps, service work, etc. I've been through the steps a few times, as honest...
by pete1061
Thu Dec 16, 2010 6:41 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin
Replies: 78
Views: 10353

Re: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin

For me the act of coming back into AA was an exercise in the first 3 steps. 1.I already knew I was powerless over alcohol. I would always buy extra than I though I needed to do the trick, because I knew once I was drunk, I would want more, and it would at least have to last until I passed out. Also,...
by pete1061
Wed Dec 15, 2010 10:48 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin
Replies: 78
Views: 10353

Re: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin

HI Pete, I'm glad you shared about your problem. Did you know that there is a 12 step fellowship for people wishing to stop using marijuana? I quote from their web page: Marijuana Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share our experience, strength, and hope with each other that we may sol...
by pete1061
Tue Dec 14, 2010 1:10 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin
Replies: 78
Views: 10353

Re: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin

Who knows really why some people are serial or chronic relapsers and others aren't. Some of the factors for me may be... Primarily, I am a marijuana addict, which the unmanageability is not quite as obvious. from 24-32 yrs old, I relapsed only on pot (didn't drink during relapses), and really only c...
by pete1061
Mon Dec 13, 2010 4:08 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin
Replies: 78
Views: 10353

Re: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin

I just get kinda touchy sometimes. As a chronic relapser, I frequently get people questioning my motives. lisar really has no basis for saying what she said. When I said "this period of sobriety may just be damage control", that was just stinkin thinkin. My disease has me questioning myself all the ...
by pete1061
Mon Dec 13, 2010 3:36 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin
Replies: 78
Views: 10353

Re: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin

Pete stated: "This period of sobriety may just be damage control." Is this what you do? Do you dry out periodically to give the old organs and rest and a chance to maybe regenerate? And is this when you try to get back in the good graces of people you have harmed while drinking? Then back to the ol...
by pete1061
Sun Dec 12, 2010 10:58 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin
Replies: 78
Views: 10353

Re: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin

happycamper, here's the thing, I just can't jive with the monotheistic 'god' you speak of. I just plain do not believe in a 'creator'. What you speak of sounds a little too much like religion. That may work for you, but I don't subscribe to that ideology. But I do believe in a spiritual realm, and i...
by pete1061
Sat Dec 11, 2010 6:03 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin
Replies: 78
Views: 10353

Re: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin

yeah, the AA pioneers really had to grab on to this for dear life if they wanted it. They weren't spoiled with hundreds of meeting in the average city. AA is so big now that we take it for granted these days. But I also keep in mind that they were messed up drunks just like us. They even said it the...
by pete1061
Fri Dec 10, 2010 7:03 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin
Replies: 78
Views: 10353

Re: newly sober, again, but not an AA virgin

I'd like to learn more about meditation. I'm sure with enough practice, I can achieve the same results of prayer, just minus an addressee as you say. I also know I need to be patient with myself and allow my brain to mend. After all It's only been 48 days since the last substance I used. I'm still q...