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by highcostofliving
Tue Jun 04, 2019 11:04 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Fear, I have no Higher Power
Replies: 6
Views: 1428

Re: Fear, I have no Higher Power

Thanks for the kind words, inspiration and helpful suggestions... it's why I come here, besides it helps to just write it out sometimes and try organizing the hamster wheel that is my brain. Got an all clear yesterday, but today got a call that said they found something else, so I'm going back in......
by highcostofliving
Wed May 29, 2019 11:23 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Fear, I have no Higher Power
Replies: 6
Views: 1428

Fear, I have no Higher Power

I have one week to wait. The doctors found something, I'm at high risk, there's an above average chance this time next week I'll be hearing the dreaded "you have cancer" speech... the waiting sucks. I've been processing the whole idea, the wait, the understanding there's nothing I can do and all of ...
by highcostofliving
Mon May 06, 2019 10:27 am
Forum: A.A. Birthdays!
Topic: 18 Months April 11
Replies: 6
Views: 630

Re: 18 Months April 11

Thanks everyone! It's been quite a ride as I'm sure most of you know. Highs/Lows and everything in between. Every once in a while those 'tests' still hit me, but one day at a time, and living life on life's terms aren't just expressions, they're manners of living that help me get through each and ev...
by highcostofliving
Tue Apr 30, 2019 2:43 pm
Forum: A.A. Birthdays!
Topic: 18 Months April 11
Replies: 6
Views: 630

18 Months April 11

Been a while since I've been on here, thought I'd at least update those that took/spent so much time walking me through a lot of the insanity and helping me through it. Thanks!
by highcostofliving
Mon Oct 22, 2018 1:57 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: I made it... almost :)
Replies: 8
Views: 1381

Re: I made it... almost :)

Thanks! It's why I agreed to do it, in my drinking days I would have ran for the hills (or a bar in the hills).... have to give it away to keep it, right!? It took me almost 11 months to get up the courage to do a simple share, now here I am a few days out from a 45 minute talk! LOL.... just going t...
by highcostofliving
Mon Oct 22, 2018 9:44 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Acceptance & Expectations
Replies: 69
Views: 9867

Re: Acceptance & Expectations

Take the word out of the example: "I expect to treat my wife well" v. "I treat my wife well" You don't really need it.... And the original examples of the doctor and drivers.... you can expect from them all you want... the doctor may have expertise in the field, and still provide poor service. The d...
by highcostofliving
Mon Oct 22, 2018 8:39 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: I made it... almost :)
Replies: 8
Views: 1381

Re: I made it... almost :)

Positrac, Correct! I think you touched on the point of my share... I felt "in trouble" when it started to feel like I had accomplished something.... I had hit a milestone in a long journey, but as you said, this is life long, I didn't reach a destination, I hadn't "made it". Which is why I chose to ...
by highcostofliving
Mon Oct 22, 2018 6:50 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: I made it... almost :)
Replies: 8
Views: 1381

I made it... almost :)

It's been a long time since I've posted here, but I wanted to share with all those that helped me in this forum, that I hit the 1 year mark (oct. 11). Thanks to you all that helped and support me, I don't know if i'd have done it without all the advice and thoughts and input from all of you on here....
by highcostofliving
Thu Jun 07, 2018 9:23 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Kept it to myself
Replies: 23
Views: 5198

Re: Kept it to myself

Right! I'm not disagreeing or thinking I'm unique.... I'm sharing on here, what my experience is... that's all.

Thanks for reading.
by highcostofliving
Wed Jun 06, 2018 1:42 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Kept it to myself
Replies: 23
Views: 5198

Re: Kept it to myself

Couldn't agree more Brock, common sense... Me personally, I just make coffee and stand there.... a few people know me and say hi, but generally I'm just standing next to people listening to their conversations..... I don't have any AA friends that I talk to... my sponsor generally doesn't attend the...
by highcostofliving
Wed Jun 06, 2018 11:02 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Kept it to myself
Replies: 23
Views: 5198

Re: Kept it to myself

Don't get me wrong... I'm doing good... great even! I feel good, healthy, sober... I rarely think about drinking, I chair a Saturday meeting.... I am simply airing an issue I have had, and had over this men's retreat. I never feel part of the AA group... and certainly didn't this last weekend. I'm n...
by highcostofliving
Wed Jun 06, 2018 7:47 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Kept it to myself
Replies: 23
Views: 5198

Re: Kept it to myself

Chelle... wow, that's... I don't know, but thanks for sharing that, glad you were able to find something in all my rambling! :) I hear you all, and fully understand the meeting isn't about spilling my guts. I'm always very aware of and respectful of the meeting topic and others in the room, and woul...
by highcostofliving
Tue Jun 05, 2018 2:18 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Kept it to myself
Replies: 23
Views: 5198

Re: Kept it to myself

Thanks everyone.... I'm hoping to try and share something for the first time at my Friday meeting... 8 months - 0 shares :). I realize, and even my sponsor said it... "you have to give it away to keep it". I have spoken with him about this, but for some reason, I get in those rooms and I just don't ...
by highcostofliving
Tue Jun 05, 2018 8:33 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Kept it to myself
Replies: 23
Views: 5198

Kept it to myself

I am a couple days from 8 months sober. I went to an AA Men's Retreat last weekend, in which I completed (or began rather) the step work with my sponsor, and I've been feeling good about my recovery... however, I still feel different and alone in the rooms of AA. Not unwelcome at all, don't get me w...
by highcostofliving
Fri Apr 27, 2018 9:16 am
Forum: The Family Afterwards
Topic: Trouble on the homefront
Replies: 16
Views: 4129

Re: Trouble on the homefront

Blue - thanks... about the amends.... I think you're right, I can certainly put it in there with the idea of simply asking "what can I do?" or something... I'm sure my sponsor will have a good way to put it. I'm going to be sitting down with her soon to do my amends..... Things have actually gotten ...