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by Timothy3012
Wed Feb 14, 2018 6:47 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: The Miracle of the Program
Replies: 2
Views: 1316

The Miracle of the Program

Big Book - Page 11 ''Like myself, [my friend] had admitted complete defeat. Then he had, in effect, been raised from the dead, suddenly taken from the scrap heap to a level of life better than he had ever known! Had this power originated in him? Obviously it had not. There had been no more power in ...
by Timothy3012
Fri Feb 02, 2018 4:09 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Why Did I Drink?
Replies: 7
Views: 1839

Why Did I Drink?

I'm just doing my morning readings and I came across this from The Doctor's Opinion in the Big Book; 'Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive, that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true...
by Timothy3012
Thu Jan 04, 2018 4:42 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Suicide & Choice
Replies: 4
Views: 2339

Suicide & Choice

I've been plagued with thoughts of suicide since I was about 11 years old. These thoughts have literally tormented me on a pretty much daily basis, and were particularly intense towards the end of my drinking. I used to lay awake at night imagining people talking about me after I had died and saying...
by Timothy3012
Mon Nov 27, 2017 4:38 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Only Try
Replies: 2
Views: 920

Only Try

This reading from As Bill Sees It (Page 214) is ridiculously full of identification for me. It's an excerpt from AA Comes Of Age and also a piece of a personal letter Bill Wilson wrote to another alcoholic; ''In my teens...I had to be first in everything because in my perverse heart I felt myself th...
by Timothy3012
Sat Nov 11, 2017 4:11 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Domination and Dependency
Replies: 2
Views: 1981

Domination and Dependency

Every now and then I come across a reading in my morning routine that sparks off huge amounts of identification for me, I just read this in 'As Bill Sees It' from page 176: ''The primary fact that we fail to recognise is our total inability to form a true partnership with another human being. Our eg...
by Timothy3012
Fri Nov 03, 2017 4:02 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Feeling Trapped in Recovery
Replies: 12
Views: 2575

Re: Feeling Trapped in Recovery

I simply accept that I'm having a 'not so good ' 'normal ' day and I try to do something uplifting for myself or something that's right in front of me. ...... the next 'loving ', acceptable or reasonable action. I am human. Humans have bad days. Nothing special or not special about that. Lotsa love...
by Timothy3012
Sun Oct 29, 2017 4:19 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Feeling Trapped in Recovery
Replies: 12
Views: 2575

Feeling Trapped in Recovery

There really are some moments where I feel trapped between my illness and recovery. Right now; I don't want to pray, I don't want to go to meetings, I don't want to practice the program...but I know that I have to if I want to stay alive. These moments of extreme dis-contentedness are by no means th...
by Timothy3012
Tue Oct 24, 2017 4:19 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: A Day at a Time
Replies: 2
Views: 855

A Day at a Time

I read this quote this morning and it sparked off one of those 'A-ha!' moments... ''...embracing our brokenness and bringing it into the light of the One who calls us 'loved' can make our brokenness shine like a diamond'' I am realising more and more just how truly broken an individual I am. I'm a v...
by Timothy3012
Sun Oct 01, 2017 3:54 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Egomaniac with an Inferiority Complex
Replies: 2
Views: 1737

Egomaniac with an Inferiority Complex

The first time I heard another alcoholic describe themselves this way I instantly realised how true this statement is in me. I am a person of extremes; I can either wallow in self-hate and lack of any discernible self-esteem, or, I can swing to the other end of the spectrum and judge everyone around...
by Timothy3012
Thu Sep 28, 2017 7:57 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: The AA Way of Life
Replies: 4
Views: 1748

Re: The AA Way of Life

Thank you Timothy for your message. I love the way you describe alcoholism so well and conversely the recovery in AA. As AA replaces the things we drank over little by little. Alcohol used to fill our holes. But now in AA we have found a way of life in the 12 Steps designed to do something FOR us, ...
by Timothy3012
Sun Sep 24, 2017 2:57 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Surrendering to God's Will
Replies: 7
Views: 3693

Re: Submission to God's Will

Hi Timothy :D usually I relate to you very well but unfortunately not in this instance. Perhaps its because of our personal viewpoints and experiences with our personal Higher Power. The Higher Power I rely on does not let me repeat things over and over and over and over again and sweeps in to resc...
by Timothy3012
Sun Sep 24, 2017 2:32 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Surrendering to God's Will
Replies: 7
Views: 3693

Re: Submission to God's Will

"We judge of things by their present appearances..." that leaped off the page to me.... how true that is for me. And how true it is, that I make these judgments pretty much 24/7... but I have no idea about the outcome of anything, or reasoning behind any of it... so why am I so quick to judge, and ...
by Timothy3012
Sat Sep 23, 2017 3:25 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Surrendering to God's Will
Replies: 7
Views: 3693

Surrendering to God's Will

Hello all, I just read this and thought how relevant it is to the AA program. It was originally written as a letter by John Newton (the chap who wrote the song Amazing Grace). I have shortened and edited the whole letter to the bits I really liked. Letter; ''It is indeed natural for us to wish and t...
by Timothy3012
Sat Sep 16, 2017 1:50 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: The AA Way of Life
Replies: 4
Views: 1748

The AA Way of Life

I am so glad AA offers a completely different way of life to any I thought possible. I quickly lost hope and from a young age became dangerously disillusioned with the things I thought I had discovered about what life had to offer. Like any good alcoholic, I threw myself head-first into as many aven...
by Timothy3012
Sat Sep 09, 2017 12:34 am
Forum: The Family Afterwards
Topic: They just wont understand
Replies: 6
Views: 4892

Re: They just wont understand

I studied Social Work as a degree and have learned a lot within the field of human behaviour. My alcoholism and experience within AA is causing me to question a lot of the THEORIES i used to believe to be gospel. In one of your early posts you mentioned leaving your old job, and gave reasons. I don...